I think it definitely has something to do with living in the South, my Memaw always told me to be polite no matter what, because if you're ugly to someone they can and will use that against you. I haven't always remembered to live by that saying of hers, because I learned very quickly that I hate being walked all over and I want my opinion heard, and occasionally people called me rude names for that. However, because of the politics of being in a sorority and learning how to navigate college life in general, I found myself following her rule more and more often.
So back to my original question, why do we think we need to say that to someone and not follow through? I feel like most of the time I make excuses as to why I can't text someone to hang out and my social anxiety doesn't help that at all. I would much rather stay in my bed and watch New Girl on Netflix for the third time than have to make small talk with someone who I should know better than to have to make small talk with. This semester I have made it my goal to follow through with those promises and texts. If someone asks me to hang out or tells me they want to get coffee, I'll let them know as soon as possible when I can go. I'm so afraid of missing out on things and friendships in my final semester because I know I'll miss these girls more than absolutely anything when I'm in Baltimore next year, just a face in a sea of people. I will long for the nights spent at the sorority house doing nothing more than watching movies, gossiping, and eating junk food with my pledge class or the rest of my sorority sisters (and yes, that is so stereotypical, but that's literally what we do).
I'm ready to take chances this semester and nourish the beautiful friendships that could have been growing this whole time, I just didn't give them a fair chance to.
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